The Guide

I wish to say goodbye

To the black seed of hate inside my heart

To the negative thoughts residing in my being

To the poisonous whispers in my ear, constantly ringing

Like an empty warning

I ask of me to save myself

I call myself to arms

To rescue what’s left of all the good

That’s buried underneath this cloud

Just trying to get out

I wish to say goodbye

To the pain I know I have caused myself

To the tears I tried to repress

To the past memories full of pretence, still plaguing me with guilt

Like a playwright of my own undoing

I demand of me I better myself

That I might live up to my own expectations

To salvage the pieces I can use

That will hurry up the healing

Just waiting to begin

For dreamer I once was

And I can be again…